Try to give a person Responsibilty

I hope I did not make a big mistake but I it seems I did. I gave YoYo half my check to pay the bills not one bill got [age and she is mad at me for it. She tried to double the money by buying some pot and selling back at twice the rate but got scammed instead. I was not for this at all but I know she smokes pot because it brings her down to a mellow state. She had this friend or mechanic from the hood that fixed her cars, he is good old boy not from the hood but fits right in because of his personality. He new a guy that would buy the stuff from her and they make a quick 200. That was just the bate, she then got that money and bought some more to double her 200 to 400 but this time the businessman as she puts it got all her money and the pot. I had nothing to do with this but yet she is mad at me because the bills did not get paid.

Buy me Ice Cream

Yo Yo called and had another bipolar moment. She has bee pretty good the last week. Got a call a few minutes ago. She said can you please get another ice cream, you finished it all up how inconsiderate. I told her last time I got Ice cream it was half was still there then she yelled and screamed that I bought the ice cream for her she did not feel like having any and no that she does its gone (she was yelling and then hug up the phone.) My daughter had a sleep over I sure one of those kids ate it.

CInco De Mayo

Happy to Cinco De Mayo to everybody. I not celebrating today because I a have no money to celebrate. Good thing they have canceled most of the celebrations her in the Dallas / Fort Worth area because of the flu. No post yesterday because I had to leave work early because of our money situation. We are broke til payday and only have gas for one car. I made up an excuse to my boss so I could use some sick leave this after noon. Yo Yo was good and did not have any bipolar moments (maybe a real small one). Yes once and a while we have those days when drama does not occur.

I put myself on a cleansing diet. I was breaking out with zits and getting fat so I am fasting for 3 days and just drinking soup and my coffee is black no cream and sugar. I not completely starving but close.

Bad Weather

Last night we had lots thunderstorms and rain in the Dallas area and it was a good day for me even so. I know Yo Yo has her good and bad days but yesterday was a day of rest. Yo Yo took a sleeping pill and was out from about 8pm to 8am. Its good for me because 12 hours without drama gives my mind some time to rest. Its was a very hard drive home from work yesterday though because the rain was so hard the streets had lots of water and there where accidents on all the highways. I passed by two of them on the way home. We had a rough Friday but Saturday night was nice and peaceful. When and bought some tacos and burritos and some soup and had a good nights rest. Sometimes bad weather can be a good thing.

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Here are my current followers. I hope to get 10,000 if I can. This blog is going to be update on the daily so I know its going to grow fast.

Feeling Bad

Sometimes I feel kind of bad after fights with Yo Yo since I know sometimes I am wrong. I know I am not always right and I have a very strong personality and I am stubborn. I know I am right most of the time because I have made the same mistakes myself when I was younger. Admitting to being wrong is very hard and with a bipolar person you do not have much time to argue or explain because on word and they already ready to fight or be happy.

Like a said sometimes I just feel mad no mater who wrong and who's right. Just want to say out of fights and stop all the drama and yelling. Also I am getting tired of happy times to when the are just ordinary things and not something to jump up and down about. I need some normalcy.

Sleep in the Car Last Night

On the way home from work yesterday I received a call from Yo Yo telling me to meet her on I-30 off of Dolphin road. I was not but 10 miles away so I did not have a problem with that, she need 5 dollars for gas and my daughter was with her. Waited at a gas station near Dolphin for about 30 minutes for her she had wanted to me at her friend Charlotte but she is a drug dealer and I refused to go and was upset our daughter was there also. Once we meet at the gas station she was in a OK good mood, I put $5 in gas bought her cigarettes and and gave her 5 dollars. Forgot to mention that I spilled about 20 cents worth of gas on my shirt and pants so I smelled like gas. My daughter was hungry and she when with me to go home. Yo Yo said I will be there in 1 hour, and we went on our way. About 5 miles later we realized we had no key to get in to the house and tried calling Yo Yo but no answer and then she called about 5 minutes later saying she had the keys. My daughter said she left a window open so we told her since she going home in on hour we would just meet her there.

We arrived at Wendy's to eat and I smelled like gas and all the customers of Wendy's where looking for the smell of oil. It was me and I was keeping my distance from them. I went to the wash room to try to kill the smell with soap but no luck. We ate quickly and headed to the house. Once we had arrived at the house we found out that no windows where open and there was no way of getting into the house. So we called Yo Yo see if she was on her way and she did not answer the phone. We went out to the back porch and watched the lake for a few minutes while my daughter road her bike.

We finally received a call from Yo Yo at about 9:30 pm and we told her we where stilled locked out and she said she was on her way. The 1 hour went by and no Yo Yo. She called back and was mad because I lied to her about the window being open (that's what my daughter thought). She was stoned and could not drive ( at least that's what she said) I refused to drive back to her to get the keys cause I new she was at her friend the drug dealer ( she sell pills and pot no hard stuff) but I not going to a house that the police are watching. Yo You said she would be on her way after the she came done from the pot. Me and my daughter when to sleep and no Mom at 12 or 2 or 4 she did not arrive til 6 am and was mad at me for not driving back to get the keys. When we got in she threw her medicine or pill at me to show me she need the pot to make her feel right. I was not mad I just wanted to get some more sleep. I do not smoke pot but I know in some states like New Mexico or California she could get a license to smoke weed and I guess it helps but me and my daughter are not going to the drug places she goes if I have any thing to do with it.

What my Bipolar Love does to me

Its very hard to deal with a loved one that has this disorder and the after effects it has on me can sometimes bring everything tumbling down. I have lots of fights with Yo Yo and sometimes I get depressed and really do not know how to handle things. I also find myself riding the roller coaster with her for good times as well. Every thing is either really good or really bad. I not sure what to think but sometimes I fell the same way she does. I not bipolar myself but her mood swings have a lot to do with the way I feel. I am writing this blog to help me deal with these issues and hoping someone might give me some suggestions or maybe even I can help someone myself.

YoYo out for Ice Cream

Yo Yo called me at work about 7pm telling me to meet her near her moms so she could take her out for Ice Cream. I know its a lie, but I never question her or confront her. She as for 25 dollars, I said for Ice Cream. She said and I need to buy some pot to comb my nerves. Its about 10 bucks for her pot and I know she is a lot less dramatic when she smokes some. I gave her the money and put in 16 for gas. She drove off and I headed home.

Received a call about 9 pm saying she was done eating Ice cream and had on more stop and would be home within the hour. She then call about 10:30 and said she was on her way and would be at home in 30 minutes. Went to bed and she woke me up coming in at 2:30 am and said for me to wake her up in the morning. Did not give me a time but I did not pay her any attention cause I was half a sleep.

In the Morning She woke me up about 5:50 complaining that I did not wake her up and she was saying pretty mad. I went back to sleep and she woke me up and complained again. I had no idea what time to wake her up, I was up at 5:13 taking a leak but thought it was to early.

She called me at lunch and said she got a A on her exam. I guess staying up late and smoking pot help her. I know I would have flunked the exam. But she is happy at this moment. One thing you got to remember about a bipolar person is that they are really happy or really mad or really sad there is no middle ground.